That foolish guy, will change

Don't fall sick

2011-09-20T00:14:00.001-07:00

I hope your home now, safely and alright. It's raining, hope you didn't walk under the rain without an umbrella. Well, go home and have a warm shower, don't catch a cold. I don't want you to fall sick. Have your lunch and drink warm water today, the blow the fan or air con directly at you. Don't wanna see you absent from school at all. I hope your doing your revision now, I'm worried for your grades. I really wanna help you in your physics, you got the lowest in class. I was worried for you when I saw how badly you scored. I really was, I hope that you would take my helping hand and let me help you. I don't wanna see you fail in any subject. Baby, work harder, but don't stress yourself alright. You'll do fine, trust me. Your working hard enough, a little more effort and you'll do good <3

Baby, I love you <3

Don't fall sick anytime soon okay! Stay healthy <3

20Sep2011 15:14

Do you?

2011-09-19T02:07:00.001-07:00

I know you aren't feeling alright, I really wanna know what happened. Is it still because of me, or something else happened too? I'm really worried for you. You don't seem to be alright in class the whole day. Though your still smiling and laughing with your friends, I know that you aren't fine deep down. I really wanna help. I really hope that we can talk like before, now. I really miss you. You might tell your closest friends that I'm sticky and thick skinned. How can you let go of one relationship which was the best and the one you loved so much. I don't know how you feel about our relationship. But don't you think that giving up just like this isn't worth it. We can still continue, lovingly, happily. We do love each other a lot. Baby, I really want you to forgive me and give me another chance. I really can't stand it when your feeling upset, and I can't help you. I'm definitely concerned about you, but when I ask you whether your fine or not, you'll definitely say yes, but I know that you aren't.
Baby, I love you <3

Come back please, we don't want things to be like this between us. Forgive me, I promise you that, the road up ahead will be worth it. I won't hurt you anymore. I'm saying this to all those who are viewing this blog now, in front of all those who are reading this right now. I promise, that I won't hurt you anymore. I don't want to lose you, I don't want you to feel hurt while with me, I want you to feel blissed while by my side.

Baby, you may say that I'm a fool. But I'm a fool that really loves you, and is willing to change for you. I don't wanna make anymore mistakes in life that cause me to regret. No more. Lets do things right, baby?

I love you <3

Remember your meals today, sleep early, do your revision too but don't stay up till too late. Sleep tight and sweet dreams <3

19Sep2011 18:07

Ring me up and I'll be there

2011-09-18T05:24:00.000-07:00

Its been raining for the past few days, are you taking care of yourself? I hope you are, don't fall sick now, it isn't a good timing, exams are coming soon, and you might miss out on quite a fair bit. Hope your drinking lots of water, and not soft drinks alright! In the night, I hope that you snuggle yourself in your blanket before you go to bed, don't catch a cold.

Like I've been saying, every single second I'm thinking of you constantly. In the morning, on twitter you posted something angry, I texted you asking you whether you were alright or not. At that very moment when you tweeted that, I was worried for you. I really wish that I could know what happen, and that I wanna help you. I wanna put a smile to your face. In the evening, you said that you wanted a hug on twitter. So I wondered to myself, do you want my hug? I was wondering what happened to you too, something bad happened? Than I decided that I should text you, reminding you to eat your dinner. Hoping that you would reply. Yeah, you didn't. I don't blame you, I blame myself. If not for me, we would still be talking happily now. I would still be getting your reminders. I hope you do eat all your three meals daily. Don't skip them, it isn't good for health. You told me that your fat and you wanna slim down. But Baby, you aren't fat. Even if your fat, I would still love you. No matter how you look, no matter what happens to you, I would still love you. Even if nobody wants you, I would still pick you up and love you. No matter how others criticise you, no matter what others say about you. I wouldn't mind, I'm the one making the decision, nobody would stop me from loving you.

Baby, I'll always wait for you, till the day you come back. Baby, I hope your doing fine with your revisions. You'll be able to do it, you won't retain this year, you won't. You'll definitely be able to promote. Your a hardworking girl, your efforts will pay off. Don't doubt your abilities. Even if you fail tests, its alright. Work harder, you'll do it. Trust me.

Baby, I love you <3

Sleep tight, sleep early tonight. Sweet dreams too. Blankets on, don't catch a cold baby. <3

18Sep2011 20:24

Thinking of you

2011-09-17T19:37:00.000-07:00

Baby, its been 6 days. Ever since that minute, the time that we spend talking has drastically decreased. I've been texting you reminders everyday now, hoping that you would eat your meals and not skip them, hoping that you won't stay up too late to study, hoping that you'll remind me back too, hoping that you would reply my message too. Can you not treat me as your normal hi-bye friend only? Its not that I don't wanna be your friend at all or whatsoever, its just that, I wanna be your special one, your one and only one, your last one, the one whom would protect you, the one whom would give you warmth in cold times. I wanna be yours truly.

Baby, every single day, I would be hoping that you would reply every message of mine, sending me a morning text, sending me reminders, sending me a good night text, I wanna talk to you so badly, so so so badly. Usually in the morning, you would give me a morning text, if your text was too early you would send a second one, saying that I'm a pig and that you would be doing your revision and you would reply my text later only. Not forgetting you would ask me to eat my breakfast too. In the afternoon, you would text me to tell me to eat my lunch, and we would continue texting before you begin your revision. In the night you would tell me that you would have to switch off your phone, and we will tell each other good night and not to stay up too late. Now I'm the one reminding you, I want you to remind too, I want you to talk to me like how we used to. I want you to call me Baby again.

Baby, honestly, I don't wanna see both of us like this, suffering. Over the past 5 days, I'm just hoping really hard that we can talk happily as usual. But your still upset at me, for what I did. I really don't want you to treat me like this, I don't want you to throw me at one side. Ever since you wanted to end it, you said that after the exams you would return, I've been waiting for your return. I didn't give up on us, I continued telling you how much I love you, I get all so worried for you when your upset, I get worried when you don't reply my text. Although your fine, I'm still worried that something might happen, because I'm not there beside you to protect you, to give you a hug, to care for you, to comfort you. Baby, give us another chance, we still love each other. We still do, I know it. For me, I'm clear of what I want. Which is to protect you, to love you like I never did, to be your one and only, to hug you when you need it, to be your forever and always.

Baby, you were the one who brought colours to my life, who brought other brighter colours in. You were my source of light, you were the Sun, your rays shone so bright that no matter how dark the road up ahead was I could still see it. I can't just see you drift away from me, I need that light of yours, to lead me. To tell me what to do, to tell me where to go, to guide me, to give me warmth. Baby, please, include me in your future, I really wanna walk through this long road with you, no matter how hard it was. I wanna love you and not hurt you. I wanna be honest with you and not to lie to you anymore. My ignorance cost so much for both of us, I don't wanna hurt you ever again. Not even for one tiny mini second. No more, no no no more. I just want you to trust me, again. I won't break your trust anymore. I.. can't move on without you. Everytime, when I take a small step, I would hesitate. I don't wanna make a wrong move. When you were around, I wasn't afraid at all, at the same time I was making sure that every step that I take would be right. It wouldn't do bad for us. That day, I really took the wrong step, I really want you to forgive me and give me another chance. I feel all so lost without you.

Baby, I love you <3 Come back to me one day, include me in your future, for I wanna spend it with you.
Remember to have your meals today. Don't skip any of them.

18Sep2011 11:11

Can we change all this

2011-09-17T04:39:00.000-07:00

I will never get used to this, never in my life. We don't text at all now, your still unhappy, your still not willing to forgive me :(
I miss you so so so so much. Do you know that I've been waiting for your texts for the past few hours. I'm just hoping that you would text me something, and that we could just talk. Although you'll be giving me one word replies, I don't mind, as long as we're able to talk, I'm contented. I really wish that you would be able to talk to me happily, I know that won't happen now, it won't happen soon either, but I really wish that day will come soon, every now and then I'm thinking about you as usual. In my mind, there is this one picture of you, which is you smiling so sweetly at me, it has been there for every single day. I mean it, every single day, that smile of yours would be right in my head. I miss you so much.

Baby, I hope you taken your dinner already, or you might do so later. Do eat alright?
Sleep early tonight, sleep tight, put on your blanket. Don't blow the fan directly at you even if your hot, if you want to, do put on your blanket and do so. Sweet dreams too.
Baby I love you <3

17Sep2011 19:41

When I see your face

2011-09-16T23:55:00.000-07:00

I went to your profile, just wanna take a look at your pictures. When I saw your face on those pictures, at that very moment I just started crying and thoughts flow through my mind "fucker, why did you hurt that girl, why"

I think that I'm the biggest fool amongst the 6 billion people living in this Earth. It took me so long to actually find one who truly loves me and one who dotes on me so much, one who accepts me for who I am, one who puts in effort to make our relationship fruitful. Baby, I will never forget how we spend times together, I will never forget how you loved me, I will never forget how you smile at me, I will never forget that face of yours. Be it when I'm blind or not. The picture of you stays in my mind, clearly.

Forgiveness is what I'm asking from you now. For I really wanna be back with you, I wanna be your priority in life and not your minority. I wanna be the one whom you love most, be it whether I'm fine physically or not. Thoughts of you just come past my mind, pictures of us spending times alone together, flashing by slowly one by one. I can't seem to remember anything else but moments of us together only. You seem all so important to me. Now I'm living in this world of my own in my mind, where you would still shower love on me, where you would still hug me, where you would still remind me, where you would still give me right advices, where you would still talk.. to me.

I really want you to be my last and only girl, I wanna walk through my life journey with you. I can't promise you now that in the future with me, you'll have a good life, but I can promise you something, I'll shower you with love like no other guy does, I'll love you like I never did, I won't hurt you like what I did, I won't make empty promises to you, I won't for I know how much you mean to me. My hands will always be waiting for yours to hold it tightly, till death parts us.

Baby, I love you <3
I'll always be waiting, I know that one very day, you would.

17Sep2011 2:55

Baby, your still in my head and heart

2011-09-16T20:56:00.000-07:00

Baby :(
I'm breaking down now, I really wanna talk to you like before. My heart is crying so loudly, it has never felt like this before. Your the girl that brought brighter colours to my life, your the girl who made me so happy. Baby, I wanna call you that again. Baby, I miss you, it's been 5 days already, 5 long saddening days. Each day, I would always be thinking of you, regardless of what I'm doing, I would always think about you first before thinking about others. I was doing my homework, than I got stuck I remembered when I used to have problems I could just text you and call you for help. Now I guess you would just ignore me and throw me to one corner. I really hate myself for causing so much hatred you have in me. I don't want you to hate and ignore me, I want you to love and care for me. It really hurts when I know that your texting/talking to others so happily, but when we're talking, sadness fills the air. I really wanna talk to you, I wanna make you smile, I don't wanna see a frown from you, but the sadness that I gave you caused you to hate me and you don't feel like talking to me at all. You wanna treat me as a normal friend of yours only. But no, I don't wanna be a normal friend of yours. I wanna be your one and only boyfriend, cause being a platonic friend of yours just suck. Its not that I don't wanna be friend with you, but, the love that you showered me with, melt my heart and it told me that you were the girl, and no matter what happens I gotta shower love with you, protect you, make you happy. It told me that no matter what happens I can't give up on us, yes I should respect your decision, but this is a decision that neither both of us wants, this is a decision that neither of us thought would happen.

Baby, would you just take back your decision? I know it would be hard for you, but the way we are now, we are suffering even more. Really, we are suffering even more. I don't wanna see you suffer, I once told you that I would rather be the one suffering than you. As a guy I would go all out to protect you at all costs, I wouldn't stand at one side and see you suffer and cry. I really want you back, thats all. No more hurting, no more suffering, no more lies to you, honesty is what I would give you, love is what I would shower on you, care is what I would give you.

Baby, I love you <3

17Sep2011 11:56

I wanna be your future

2011-09-16T18:48:00.000-07:00

Just send you a morning text and a reminder to eat your breakfast. In the past, you would always be the one doing it, and I would always be so happy to receive, and tell you that I will do so and that you must eat too, not forgetting that I always tell you I love you too. Now, I'm the one reminding you all the time, I don't get all those reminders anymore. I really miss how you remind me daily, 3 times a day. There would always be a smile when you remind me, lest I forgotten or something. Now I'm just waiting, till you start reminding me and texting me like how we would.

I learnt from this mistake, I really learnt. Everyday in school, I'll be just looking at you from afar, seeing you smiling while your talking with your friends, seeing how happy that you would be able to spend time with them. Last time, when we spend time together your smile was way sweeter, the way you spoke to me was like a chipmunk. You were pretty and cute then. I just wanna see those cute little smile of yours and your chipmunk tone that you have, this would make me contented for a few days.

Up till today, I'm still hoping that you would forgive me and come back to me. I miss you a lot! I can't stand how things are now. Really can't. The fact that we were so sweet before and so cold now, its really impossible for me to actually accept this fact. I know we can change things and work it all out, I know we can. Trust me would you? We would be able to do so. Now it sounds like I'm doing things my way, but I feel that neither of us want this to happen, neither of us at all. I wanna work things right with you, I don't wanna make anymore mistakes, I want to be by your side, your guardian angel. Baby, I love you so much. I really want you back. I want the baby before and not the baby now. Give us time, for both of us, we still love each other. I don't wanna lose you either. Baby, don't be cold please? I want that warmth from you and not the cold that your giving now :(

Baby, I love you <3

17Sep2011, 9:48

Those little drops of water

2011-09-16T09:16:00.000-07:00

Its 12:07AM now, I'm wondering whether your still awake or not, whether your still revising now or sleeping already? I hope your sleeping right now, soundly, and tightly. I don't want you to tire yourself by sleeping so late and waking up early the next day to study. I don't wanna see you do badly for the exams, I want you to pass and get promoted and not retain or even drop to Normal.

I.. Miss you :(

While your sleeping I hope that you would be dreaming about something good between us and that it will come true.

I love you <3

Baby please don't go

2011-09-16T04:29:00.000-07:00

Baby, do you know how dearly I want you back? Do you know everyday in school, I'll be watching you? I'm all so worried for you, every single second I would be thinking about you. Cant't you forgive me? I'm really seeking forgiveness from you, I really want you to forgive me, I don't want both of us to continue life like this, cause it sucks. Really. Last time, I wouldn't be worried whether you won't reply me or not, but now, I'm hoping that you would just reply every single message of mine. I really miss you. I don't want you to treat me as a hi-bye friend of yours only, I wanna be your last boyfriend, your only boyfriend till death. I wanna be the one who would protect you when your in trouble, I wanna be the only one to comfort you when your sad, I wanna be the one who would be there for you where you need me. I wanna be the one and only Baby of yours.

That day when I told you my reason, you believed me, you thought that I wouldn't lie to you, and when you found out, you realised that it was all a lie, it was a lie said by me to walk you home. I really miss that path that we use to take together, today, after CCA, I walked down that same path, myself. While walking, I remembered how happily we would be talking as I walked you home, crossing that street, walking pass the coffee shop, crossing that road. While crossing the road just now, I didn't look at the traffic, I was looking forward, remembering how happy we were, and this van honked at me twice, I didn't care, I continued walking. And I went to the place that we would usually sit down, talk and hug each other. The moment I reached there, tears just rolled out, thinking back of how sweetly we would talk back then, and giving each other warm hugs, I really started hating myself so terrible. I might as well end my life now, for causing so much hurt for both of us, my parents are disappointed in me too, I really wanna end it, I don't know how to continue life without you, I want you to guide me.. But I will not give up just yet. I won't, I'll continue living, for I want to win you back, for I want you to come back to me, for I want you to shower love on me, for I want you to care for me, for I want you to give me constant reminders, for I want you to hug me, for I want you to hold my hand, for I want you back by myside, I wanna win you, I want you back!

I know that no one would be able to change your decision, regardless of who that person is. I know that I'm at fault, and I really want you back, till today, your still hurt, hurt for what I've done. You didn't thought that I would do something like that, you didn't expected me to hurt you so great. Hurting you is equivalent to hurting myself. I once told you, when your sad, I'm sad too. Now that your not feeling alright, neither am I. Wouldn't I be a jerk if I were to still laugh and joke with my friends knowing that your unhappy. If I do so, I would be an asshole, I wouldn't even have the face to ask you to come back to me. That's why no matter how much funny things they do in class, I would hardly laugh at all. Even if I do, it'll be for one second, and after that my mind go backs to you. Both my mind and my heart are telling me that they need you so badly, my heart, its crying really hard for you to come back and forgive me. My mind is scolding itself, blaming it for causing so much unhappiness between us, telling it that it hates itself a lot, it wanna die so badly, it wants too.

Baby, I will not find someone else better, cause your the best that I could ever get. I wanna be your future and I want you to include me in your future. If you ever give me that chance again, or if I earn it back, I swear to god, to everybody on earth, to everybody who sees this, I WILL NOT LIE TO YOU EVER AGAIN, I WILL NOT HURT YOU EVER AGAIN, I WILL CHERISH YOU EVEN EVEN EVEN MORE, CAUSE YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME AND I CAN'T LOSE YOU.
Baby I miss you so terribly, so terribly. My love for you is bigger than the Earth, my love for you is bigger than the vast skies and deep blue ocean. My love for you can't be measure, because its too big.

Baby, I love you <3
Remember to eat your dinner tonight. Don't stay up too late either. Sleep early, sleep tight. Sweet dreams baby.
Ps, I know that if you ever forgive me or if I ever earn that chance, your feeling towards me then and before would be different. I wouldn't mind, I would slowly earn them all back, I'll persevere till my very last breathe.

16Sep2011 19:29

That hunch of mine

2011-09-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

It just daunt on me that neither of us wants this to happen at all. My foolishness cause this unhappiness for both of us, it hurts alot for me, it hurts a lot really. I know that your not fine, you know that I'm not fine either. I might just breakdown anytime. In my heart, deep down, its crying really hard. Seeing us in a state like this is really suffering. I know your serious about what you've said, and I will respect it, I don't wanna further hurt us.

Yes it'll be hard to forgive me, for I brought you happiness, but I brought you sadness in which I didn't want to at all. You might think, oh whats the point of saying all this now, when I hurt you already. I know there isn't any point, but I just wanna tell you everything, no more lies, all truths. Will I have the chance again? The answer you gave me just now, you were serious. Really serious. Im afraid, cause I really hope that you'll change your decision. Both of us are suffering so terribly now, I was the one who caused all this, so I should be the one whose suppose to fix it, and mend it. You don't trust me at all now, I can't text you like before, I miss it so badly! I miss it when you put a "<3" in the messages you send to me, I really miss it. I miss how you call me a pig, I miss how you hit me, in fact I miss every single thing about you, every single tiny little thing that you do for me and you do to me. I really want you to change your mind, would you? Seeing us both suffering, it isn't good for us at all. I do believe there is other alternatives apart from this decision of yours. I don't mean to disrespect your decision, but it really hurts us a lot to be in a state like this, it really does. Although going back together won't be a perfect alternative from your point of view, I'm willing to wait for you. Just don't say that your serious on giving up and that we're impossible. I wanna give both of us time, give you time, to actually come back to me slowly, cause at least I know that you would still come back.

Baby, I love you <3
My mind is in a blank now, I'm worrying for both of us only, I'm thinking about you. I really, miss you :(
Come back, one day, please? Dont throw me away at one corner :(
Without you, life is all so dull and meaningless

15Sep'11 20:26

I won't break anymore

2011-09-15T02:46:00.000-07:00

I really hope that you would read this, cause from today, I'll be blogging pretty regularly.

I didn't had those intention of hurting you, I really wonder how your feeling right now. I really miss you, I can't hug you like before, I can't talk to you like before, I can't walk you home and to school like before. I really hope that your seeing this, maybe you won't for now, but maybe one day you'll see it? I really wanna do all those with you again, I promised never to give up on you, I won't. But I just hope that we can still text and talk like good friends? That's all that I'm wishing for now, nothing more. I know that I broken the trust you had in me as a friend and that when I done that, you think that if I were with you again I might lie to you and hurt you even more. I dare to promise you right here right now, that I will never ever lie to you if you were to give me a chance yet again. I know it'll be hard to get that chance back again, but I'll persevere. Cause this is the promise that I made to you, I don't want you to feel that I'm lying to you and that I can't be trusted. I really love you and I really can't lose you. 3 years and 7 months before we could be together. During then, I really wanted to be with you so badly, either you were in a relationship already or it wasn't a good time, or even when I screwed things up and you got pissed at me. After being with you, I got to know more about you, you are actually much sweeter than I expected, much more cute than I expected, much more loving than I expected. You were all that i ever wanted. Being with you, I started realising that your so important to me, I never knew that till we were together. Being with you, I was really really elated. The moment when we spend times together, I can't be more happy. I really wanna continue to be able to spend times with you again, as a couple, as your boyfriend. I wanna receive those hugs that you give and for you to hold my hand really tight when we're out. Its gonna be hard for me, I might not be able to change your mind, but I won't give up, for I know that your important to me. Now I'm sort of doing things my way, I really don't want you to end up by any other guy's side after the exams, I want you to be back with me. I can't imagine another guy to hug you and hold your hand. I want it to be me. Yes I'm selfish by saying so, but your really important to me. You say that over time I'll give up but I'll prove you wrong, I don't wanna piss you by doing so. Cause i promised not to give up, so I will stick to it and not give up. Just now when you told me that after the exams you'll definitely come back to me, I was really happy at that moment, till you said that it's impossible. We went through ups and downs, it took us so long to get together and I really don't want you to just give up on us. But I know, I can't change your mind, neither can your friends. Only if I do things right now, will I then be able to change your mind? I really want to win you back again, I want you to care for me again, I want you to tell me that you love me, I want you to give me constant reminders, I want you to be there for me when I need you. I want you so badly. I too, wanna be there for you when you need me, I wanna tell you how much I love you, I wanna spend time with you, I wanna do so many things with you! If only we can rewind time and hope that I had not done that, you would still be talking to me happily.

Baby, I still wanna call you this forever. Now I can't call you this at all. I can't hear you call me this too. I really miss how you call me baby when we spend times together, that cute voice of your really melts my heart. After eoy would you be able to call me that again? For I miss you a lot, although it has been 2 days only. I really hope that during this time, till eoy ends, I would be able to get you back. Words itself can't describe how desperate I need you back by myside. Baby I love you, always.

Baby, I want you back, I really want you back. I love you <3

If I had that warmth of yours now

2011-09-14T06:00:00.001-07:00

Its a really long cold night, and your having your tuition now, I hope your wearing enough clothes for tuition today. Don't catch a cold and fall sick. When your coming back home later, do be careful. And don't stay up till too late too, sleep early tonight. You have CCA tomorrow, you'll be tired.

It's really cold today, really really cold. I really wanna receive that warm hug of yours right now, to actually kill all the cold thats around me. I really wanna know how your feeling now, what your thinking of me. Do you hate me, or have you forgiven me. Cause I really wanna be forgiven by you, I don't wanna be hated by you.

I don't wanna further talk about all these, I don't wanna make your feelings change towards me. I hope that you'll reach home safe and sound. And do put on your blanket when your sleeping tonight, if not wear more clothes too. The weather is being crazy this few days, so stay healthy. Drink lots of water, have ample of rest and wear an extra jacket when your cold. I love you <3
Good night, sweet dreams

I miss you

2011-09-14T03:12:00.000-07:00

Its been a day, a day since you stopped texting me, a day since you start ignoring me. When will this stop? 24 hours, 86400 minutes and 5184000 seconds passed. I really miss you, I really do. This whole day, I've been thinking about you, nothing related to those questions in which the teacher taught, nothing related to those questions in which that teacher asked us to do. Hearing you laugh, seeing you smile, hearing you talk as I was lying on my table in the midst of sleeping, how I wish I was the one who made you laugh, how I wish I was the one who made you smile, how I wish I was the one who talked to you. I really wanna talk to you today, but I don't wanna worsen things between us, I don't wanna make mistakes. I don't wanna regret in life. I dearly miss you, I just wanna talk to you again.. A text from you right now would just make my day. I know your still angry, your upset. I really really wanna talk to you again, would you cool down and give me the time to do so? Don't ignore me anymore, I detest it. Seeing you talking happily with the others, while I'm just sitting over there sleeping my life away and thinking of you..

Do you feel happy without me, do you feel sad without me, or your just neutral without me. I really wanna know how your feeling without me. For me, it sucks. Seeing the one that you love so much, that your willing to give up everything just for her but I could only stand at one side and watch her from afar. I don't wanna neglect you, I wanna walk up to you and speak with you. But I'm afraid you would ignore and walk away. Your still angry, I don't wanna piss you further, I don't want you to hate me. Over this few days, I just wanna give you time to cool down, I really wanna talk to you badly, I mean it. For whatever that I've said, you might find it hard to believe. But I mean it. I miss your constant reminders, telling me to have my lunch and dinner, telling me not to skip them. When your unhappy, you would tell me that your fine and tell me not to worry about you. I really miss you.. A day has passed and I'm feeling really terrible I can't imagine if this actually goes on. I hope that your seeing this now, and you would actually talk to me again.

Those two papers that were given out just now, one by during CME and the other by lingseet. When I saw the were given out by Leow. I knew what I wanted to write already, who I was gonna write about. That would be you. I was wondering whether in your mind, would you do the same too, write it all about me? Respect, Empathy, Accepting, Caring and Honesty. Respect, you respected my choices in what I do, sometimes you tell me to do things that would be right and not wrong, you never once doubted my decisions; Empathy, you are concerned for me, when I was sick, you were worried sick, you wanted to be there by my side to take care of me; Accepting, you accepted me for who I were, be it me being a jerk or an asshole, you still loved me; Caring, you cared for me when I wasn't feeling good, you gave me a warm hug when I needed it, you would always be there for me; Honesty, you were always honest you didn't lie, in a relationship, its all about trust, promises, being honest and so on. You trusted me, you were honest with me, you made promises to me. I trusted you, I made promises to you, but I wasn't being honest with you 2 days back. I lied to you. Thinking back now, I should have listened to you that day, and not lie to you, cause lying to you would hurt you and give up on me, lying to you would make you hate me, lying to you would break the trust you had in me. I lied to you, I wanna turn things around. I don't wanna break the promises I made towards you, I won't give up, I won't stop loving you. Cause I know, deep down in your heart somewhere there is still this empty space for me. Days ago, I remember us texting, we were joking then. You said you were at my door, and I told you that I when to open it but you couldn't be found. And you told me that you were in my heart, at that moment, I really wanted to hug you very tightly, for you saying that, it shows how much you love me, it shows how much you treasure our relationship. Now, you don't even wanna talk to me at all, I really miss you badly. Even till now, I'm still thinking of you all the time!

Baby, chances from you don't come by easily, I gotta to work hard for it to earn it, I wanna work hard for it and get that chance from you. To be with you, it would be a dream come true for me. I don't wanna make any mistakes this time, I don't want to. I wanna do things right from now on. You might think that I would be wasting my time, but no, I'm not. I rather waste my time on you and wasting my time on my friends, I rather spend my whole afternoon studying with you than spending my whole afternoon talking with my friends about random and unrelated stuffs. I rather spend my whole day with you, doing productive stuffs and making you happy, than going out with my friend to catch a movie and shop. I rather spend my future with you than any other girls. I rather walk that tough journey with you than walking an easy journey with another girl. I'm willing.

Baby, I hope your actually reading this, cause I dare not text you, I don't wanna further agitate you. I really wanna talk to you soon, after you have cooled down, after your feeling better, after you feel that I deserve your love. I'll wait, I promise you. I wanna clear the air with you and tell you every single thing, how I feel about you, how I love it when I spend my time with you, how I miss you, how I miss the aroma your hairs give, how I miss your soft hands, how I miss your smile, how I miss everything about you. Just now while I was having lunch, I smelled that aroma that your hair gives out, it just kept lingering about me, it was sticking to me, everywhere that I went, I could smell it. I really don't want you to give up on us, I know that I can't change your mind and neither can others. But I really hope that you don't do so. Cause I still love you, no matter what you do to me no matter how your treating me, I still love you, for who you are, for what you are. For all that you've done touched my heart and gave me a big impact. I can't lose you.

Baby, remember your dinner. Later in the night, I hope you'll sleep tight and have sweet dreams. I love you <3
I hope your reading this. Baby, a foolish boy does foolish stuff to anger people, would you help correct that foolish boy and love him like how you did. Cause that foolish boy really loves you, for you are the one.

Baby, I hope that you cool down soon and forgive me, I really wanna talk to you. I don't wanna do stupid stuffs that make me regret for life. I love you <3
Talk to me soon, would you?

Baby, I don't wanna hurt you

2011-09-13T06:17:00.000-07:00

Baby, I know your angry with me, for lying to you. To you a white lie and a normal lie is the same, there isn't any difference between, a lie is a lie. I didn't mean to lie either.. I didn't want things to turn out like this. I really wanna talk to you face to face, personally. Typing all my reasonings out here and in texts, seems so insincere, I really wanna talk to you, but would you give me the time, would you listen to me? Over the past few hours, I've been doing nothing but thinking of you only, I was worried about us, worried about you. I thought of you first even before thinking of myself, at times, I didn't care about myself I'm only wondering how you are. Ever since day one, when we were together, I wanted to do things right with you, I don't wanna screw things up between you. After getting together, I realise how much you mean to me, how important you are to me. I need you so badly. Ever since we were together, there were only good times, and never bad times. When I was with you, I was smiling all day. I hope you were too. Cause you were the best girl I ever had, I couldn't ask for more! You are all that I ask for. Although I was sick, and you wanted to care for me and be there for me but you couldn't I didn't blame you. I blame myself for not being able to take care of myself, for making you worried! I was really looking forward to celebrate our one month together, I actually planned it. I wanted to bring you to the marina area walk around, together as a happy couple. Making others envious when they see us, walking around, enjoy the nice sceneries together. Taking pictures, and keeping them. Making them as our phone's wallpaper and always remembering that special and fun filled day that we had. I really wanted to celebrate with you, but it ended. You wanted to study, and I was willing to give you time and wait for you. Everyday, regardless of whether we're together or not, up till now I still call you 'baby' my phone's contact name of you is still "baby' I've never called anyone that before, except you. You are just so special to me. Although people may have negative comments about you, about your past, about you now. I don't care, not at all. I'm not bothered by what they say. A relationship is between both of us, and not for others to care, so why should they be bothered and make negative comments about you. All those that happen are history, I'm not bothered, I'm only concerned about my future with you. Do you remember the promises you made? I do remember the promises that I've made after you left. I promised never to let you go, I promised that I'll wait for you. Up till now, I'm still waiting for you, I'm not giving up on us yet. I still have that hope and faith in us. I don't wanna give up because I realise that your the most important and loving girl that I've ever met in my 15 years of life. I don't wanna spend my future with other girls, I just wanna spend it with you, no matter how tough the journey up ahead might be, no matter how many obstacles we would meet, I'll still hold your hand that tight and never let you go.

Every single day, when I'm sad, worried, missing you, I would always want a hug from you. Your hug gives me warmth and comfort that makes me feel better. Your hug is so special, is that kind of warmth that actually give out a loving heat that makes me feel less cold. Your kiss, those gentle lips of yours, they're heavenly. Everytime you give me a kiss, I feel secured, I feel that I'm yours. Those feelings are indescribable, words itself can't describe how much it means to me. Nothing can describe how much you mean to me, and I mean it.

Because of the lie that I had said today, you don't believe me anymore, you might be thinking that whatever that I'm saying now are all lies, they're insincere, I am insincere. You might think that in the first place I wasn't serious about you. Honestly speaking, all along, I was serious about you. I was committed, and there are times where I make you feel that my friends are more important than you. But no, usually after school I would be spending my lunch with them. But I rather spend my lunch with you, hugging you tightly in my arms, holding your hands that tight, I even skipped lunch just to spend more time with you. For you, I will. If your reading up till here right now, it actually shows that you are concerned, and that you still believe me. Baby, I really love you. Every single day, I would say "i love you" at least a few times a day. I want you to know how much I love you, I want you to know that I can't go on without you. Now that you aren't replying my text at all, and your even having thoughts of not being friends with me.. I'm really lost. I know why you won't reply my text, your angry at me. Your angry that I lied to you, your angry that I broke your trust towards me. Your that angry. And I've never seen you this angry before. I don't want you to lose that trust and respect that you have towards me, I want you to keep it, till the day you come back, even till forever. I even want you to respect and trust me even more, but what I've done today just ruined everything. Being with you, I realised that you don't like lies, you don't like apologies and many more. I lied to you, and now I'm seeking your forgiveness. I really want you to forgive me, I've learned from my mistake. After this few hours, I realised that all along, I'm not able to give you that sense of comfort, I made you upset, I caused things between us to go bad. You've never done anything wrong, your trying very very hard to maintain this between us. I too, dare not deny that I'm not doing so, you would know it. But me, being so stupid and dumb, ruin things that are actually fine. Causing what is happening between us now. I really miss you, i really do. I miss your texts, i miss your reminders, telling me to eat my meals. I miss how you put a "(:" or even a "<3" in your message. I miss every single thing about you. Your features, your voice, your attitude, your hair smell, your warm hug every single little thing about you! Idk whether you believe me or not, because of that lie just now. I really wanna tell you one thing only, all that I've said in my texts and right here about you, they're are true. Nothing but the truth. I want you back, I love you, I miss you.

I don't know how your feeling now, are you feeling good or are you feeling bad without me? Well, for me, I'm feeling really bad without you. I really want those warm hug of yours right now, I dearly miss it. Baby, to you a lie is a lie. But I wanna tell you why I lied. I wanted to walk you home, I wanted to talk to you for a little while more. I knew that you would reject me and tell me to go home and not waste my time. I know your concerned for me, that's why you ask me to go home instead of walking you home. The other reason why I wanted to walk you home, is because I wanna see you reach home safe and sound. I don't want anything bad to happen to you. Honestly I'm afraid of how you cross the roads, no offence, but I'm just afraid. I wanna hold your hand everytime you cross the road with me, I wanna make sure you cross the road safely and after crossing it your fine. Baby, I really wanna continue calling you this. I want you to give me constant reminders, I want you to care for me, I want you to love me, I want you to hug me, I want you to shower me with love, I want you to spend your precious time with me. I want you to forgive me. I know that I'm at fault, I know that I shouldn't have lied to you just to walk you home. I really wanna continue walking you home and to school. If someday, I just walk by that same route we always take, I would breakdown. I would wish that you were beside me, walking happily with me and talking to me.
Baby, I really don't want you to ignore me, I don't want you to unfriend me. I wanna be treated like how you treat Rey and they all or maybe treated even better.

Baby, you might find it hard to believe all that I've said. But I dare to swear to anyone who read this even to god, to my grandmother up in heaven, what I said are all true. I love you. I won't give up on us, and I hope you too won't give up. I can't go on without you..

Baby if you have read up till here, this shows that you actually care, you might still believe me. And that you might not wanna give up on us. Baby, I'm sorry for breaking that trust you had in me, I really am. Baby, I wanna see a smile on your face, than a frown. I rather be the one having the frown and that you carry that smile on your face.

Baby, I Love You <3

I hope that you'll talk to me again, I hope that you won't ignore me, I hope that we will still call each other "baby" and spend times together, I hope that you will come back to me, I hope that you'll forgive me.

Baby for all that I've said are sincere, I hope you believe me. Though I can't be there in person for you, when you are sad, I'll always be in your heart, I hope that me being in your heart will give you warmth and make you happy again. I wanna stay in your heart forever. I wanna be with you. I remember you saying that your my future baby, I do wanna be your future baby too.

Baby, forgive me. That foolish me will change, that foolish me will never lie to you and hurt you. Tho that person is foolish, he wanna be with you. He is willing to sacrifice his time for you when you need him. He loves you.

Thats all that I've to say, I really wanna talk to you face to face, that would be much more sincere and honest. I hope that you'll give me the time baby. I don't want things to go bad between us. I hope that you do read it up till here. For I do, Love you.

My apologies

2011-08-14T00:38:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry, for what I've said on Twitter, I don't mean it. I shouldn't have said that in the first place, remember me telling you that when I'm stupid i say stupid things which make people angry? I done so, I'm an asshole, a jerk. I'm sorry :(
Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, this 3 days, were both good and bad for us I guess. We started out with this 3, ended off with this 3. Seems like we will never enjoy our weekends at all when we think back about us. Third day already, I have this feeling that we're drifting further and further. I don't want this to happen to us, I want you back really. But from my actions, you might think that coming back would not be worth it. Yeah, I agree with you too, I'm just a fool yknow, a big fool. Trying so hard to get you back, but doing stupid stuff with prevents me to do so. Really, what am I doing, god. If only you were still here, you would still talk to me, most probably make me happy. Talk on the phone, entertain each other, make each other laugh. For all these that happened, I don't blame you at all, instead, I blame myself for all that happen. Maybe my actions really didn't prove much, you won't able to know how I was feeling. Ugh, fingers crossed, really.
Ps I just want you back

Would you jump too, if i do so?

2011-08-13T05:34:00.001-07:00

Yes, guess I got addicted to blogging huh! Its been awhile, yeah it has been. Poof, I was blogging 2 years ago, and here I'm back again? Well, guess nobody will read it, not really bothered even if anyone does anyway. So yeah.
There is this one person that I hope, will read this, but I'll just let you find out by yourself. You wouldn't know that I would be blogging either, right? Maybe this is due to what happen yesterday, sigh.
I have this small dream, a really small one. Well, about this it, I only hope that you'll come back to me, that's my wish only. Nothing else, really. That's all that I'm asking for, I really don't want to lose you, I can't afford to..

Baby, I love you

2011-08-12T19:18:00.001-07:00

Well, guess I'm back again. And this is really my last post. I just hope that you'll see this. Maybe you wont, idk.
Really, i don't know what makes you think that your a burden to me, and that by leaving you would make me feel happy and less stressed? Your wrong yknow, i know, I've told this to you for countless of times, but really your wrong. I don't want you to leave me, you should never left, really. Your never ever ever a burden to me, neither did you make me feel stress, all that I want now is that for you to come back, and be with me, that's all I'm wishing for, really. I need you by my side yknow. Without you, I feel so stressed up and unhappy. I really want you back desperately, losing you wasn't what I wanted at all. I never wanted to let your hand go yesterday, I was holding it very tight, but you pulled your hand away. I wanted to hold it forever, lock it, and never let it go never. Please oh please, come back would you, really, I cannot lose you. I remember what you promised, I want you to fulfill it, I don't want you to just walk away like that..
When you cry, in my heart, it felt like there were like 100000000 arrows poking my heart, I felt really bad, i really didn't know what to do. But I realised that I should actually hold your hang and hug you really tight, tight enough that you'll never leave me at all. I gave you a kiss on your forehead, do you remember? I hugged you, I remember once telling you that I would do all these, I done so, and now all that I'm asking for, is for you to actually come back. Please. I really want you back by my side, badly. I cant lose you at all, I don't want to lose, I'm afraid that losing you now, means that there will never ever be any more chances. I don't want this to happen, really. Come back would you? I really need you badly, I believe that you want to, but your afraid that you would affect me or whatsoever. I wouldn't mind, really, all I want is that for you to come back to me and to be mine. Losing you, hurts me a lot. I hope that we can be back together again, happily, way better than before. I only want you now and nobody else. If you ever come back to me, please don't ever feel that your a burden. Your a lovely girl, a girl that many would adore. I wanna hug you many more times, to hold your hands too..
Baby, would you come back, please? I love you

2009-10-18T04:14:00.000-07:00

yea NICO thks for de tags man...haha JAY BRING DE HSE DOWN haha!!we help u pay for de fine haha cut as many roofs as u wan (:
so yea...2dae went out in de mrning to do stuffs den lunch went to eat Jack's Place at Compass Point aft eat finish den went bak home by MRT so de funny thing was tt i saw someone ur dunno wth...so suay hahas her sis and mum was thr too...den went home to play lols til now and Mitch oso play lik siao den play til now sian den dun wan play haha!den Ru Jia oso smsed mi say she veri bored den i intro her to activities to do haha she dam funny sia suddenly sms say wan go out watch movie buy dunno when hahas (:

2009-10-14T01:39:00.001-07:00

finally~exams end liao woots~~for de past few weeks been studyin lik crazy....so now its time to party haha!!so yea lik so long nvr post got alot funny things...so ya nxt time free den post all 2gether haha muz w8 be patient!!!so tok abt 2dae had oral den went to Tim's hse lik totally slack sia i was playin his PSP den play til quite sian lah but Mitch also came and say his hse nice lols?!but Tim de father dam ZAI he ownself lik do de electronics or smthin lik tt lah BY HIMSELF WTF?! pro rite haha!!den de living rm lik storerm haha all de wires all lying around lols..den went home den we were at North Point mi and Mitch bought Old Chang Kee!!haha Mitch lik so obsessed wif his CURRY PUFF sia...he almost everyday oso buy siao?hahas sorta crazy but reali its nice TRUST mi!
(:
endin post here

2009-09-26T16:47:00.000-07:00

aft so long decided to blog for awhile first lah...anyw since now exam oso no time blog nid study...dam sian wan :(
so ya tis period of not bloggin alot of funny things happen lah got weird,funny,sad lah etc etc...so oso very lazy type all out ltr can become story book arh lols (: dunno wad to strt on lols nvm lah nxt time aft exam den blog haha~~
Z-4~~

2009-09-18T03:50:00.000-07:00

finally post aft a long time dunno why juz dun feel lik postin loh veri sian wan lah sch espically 2dae(onli e2 ppl noe) but aft ssch went pizza hut and alot of funny things happen~~hahas i post videos let ur see lols~

2009-07-28T04:49:00.000-07:00

Finally the second post after fixing mi blog lols...sch sux tis few daes sia...de tcher so dam wad sia...
tcher now a dae reali sux juz lik mi eng tcher bring emotion to work anyh buay song ask u sit at de side
den de art tcher anyh write ppl name even if nvr tok lik Chuan Kian lik tt lah ass tchers old tchers are
old and crazy,useless!!!they sux lah...WTH?!i wonder who will lik em sia ai ya gonna end here liao lah stil
hav to do de IPW proj thingy @ss..!

2009-07-10T06:53:00.000-07:00

YES!!!!finally i fixed mi blog lols...took awhile haha!~~anyw fix finish liao den can post le lols!so actually reali nthin much lah juz tt mi and Chuan Kian sit behind veri fun keep tokin haha den tok abt jokes...den ytd if im not wrng suddenly de whole class strt singin de banana song den they were lik Peel Ms Vani Peel Peel Ms Vani... etc. den suddenly Chuan Kian lik say pew pew pew den suddenly shout BOMB BOMB BOMB wah dam funny sia...out of sudden he suddenly do tt rite is reali funni haha lols!den i keep askin him to repeat and repeat agn so keep laughin til stomach pain sia lols?oso got 1 thing abt mi and Chuan Kian we love to borrow de Dettol Hand Sanitizer lol den Chuan Kian will use alot de feelin dam nice when u rub on ur hand lolss...den we oso go and borrow de Amanda de box of pen den do lik de fourtune tellin lik tt den anyh go say de ppl future etc...den 2dae oso had to receive some NCC shirt lah cost $10 lol crazy haha juz 1 Polo of $10 anyw juz buy lah den mi,Tim,Mitch tot hav de scorpion behind but dun even hav WASTED lols...end here!!=))

2009-06-11T02:11:00.001-07:00

hii

2009-06-02T01:29:00.000-07:00

Srry for not bloggin for long...coz im lazy lah.so din wan to blog,now holi liao can party...but stil hav to go sch for Remedial leh...suay loh but oso got sort of help us lah!so actually got alot of thing to type lah,but LAZY!agn im LAZY haha!=)so 2dae aft sch we went to Nico's hse to play soccer lah...actually suppose to play basketball wan but Nico cannot find de ball so play soccer loh!den mi and Nico team so opponent is Tim,Mitch and Thiam lah...but i forget de score liao...den i always do long shot miss leh,coz i go and curve de ball WTF?!?!den Tim was lik bettin wif mi tt i cannot score den in de end i scored haha!lols den Tim left eariler coz he had tution...so mi,Mitch and Thiam cont playin wif de ball lah!den coz at de top thr got lik errm...de design of de structure got holes den we try throwin de ball into de hole got point lols!den we play at de playground til 1.30 b4 we left...coz Thiam father would fetch him den mi and Mitch ask Thiam to ask his father whether can fetch us to Bradell and de ans was YES loh..den we sit inside de car den his father was tokin to us lik askin whr we stay etc...den at MRT Mitch was tellin mi tt Thiam's father car veri cool den wan to ask his father to buy lols sia...HAHA!!!anyw its 6 mre daes to mi bdae lol!!!time to receive mi presents&money le...ur got prepare haha!=))

2009-05-19T01:31:00.000-07:00

Ok now im totally crazy abt RC sia...im mad abt it i choinging lik siao liao haha=)) im mad i beat Tim&Alex nxt is Chuan Kian lols,but confrim cannot de Chuan Kian oso everytime choing wan loh...at first saw him lvl 11 den nxt dae lvl 16 liao lols!anyw tok abt 2dae no lesson at all juz some motivational crap lah...den is Sci, blah blah blah!den finish sch go botak eat.den we din noe we pay extra $4 so we decided to buy Reg Spicy Fries den Mitch tak de whole thing lols it was lik served in a bag lah lik u noe those type vomit inside de bag tt one...(nvm if u dunno)den Ryan Thiam wan eat de fries but den he leave earlier so cannot eat lah den Nico say why Mitch tak de whole thing den Mitch nvr reply lols den in de end stil Mitch tak de bag den saw Ryan Go at bus stop den he askin wad tt whr buy frm Long John Silvers arh?den we say yea den he lik dumbfounded lik tt!den we took 13 to YCK to tak MRT so in de bus Mitch say hav to guess smthin strting wif ltr 'P' so i said Peanuts and of coz get correct lah den Ryan Go keep guessin but Mitch stil dun wan giv lols but in de end gaver him a few onli loh...anyw nthin to write le so gonna stop here lols=))!

2009-05-18T03:37:00.000-07:00

ok juz finish sch onli coz 2dae had some kind of archery lesson lah...overall quite fun lah,stil ok.so i tell u abt wad happen in sch aft recess alot of funny thing happen mi,Alex,Xuan Wee keep catchin Chuan Kian den he hav to keep comin bak to catch us lols dam funny sia he run run run til no energy lols!den Chuan Kian and mi play wrestling lols we at de bak of de class fite den push each oth to de floor push til got tcher come haha!den is a old man den we eatin Nico's sweet so i say to Mitch u wan tak rite u throw at de old man first dam funny sia den keep throwin den he notice but dunno who throw wan lols!den suppose to be math den Mr Chong come sia...den he saw mi pushin Amanda into de rain den hav to stand in front of de whole class...den de dam Nico keep callin mi name den go throw de sweet at mi!@ss lols...den finish sch liao den go for de Archery lesson.De strting dam bored loh...keep on tokin abt dunno wad shit den de last part SHOOT aroows!!!WAKAKA!haha=))

2009-05-16T23:37:00.000-07:00

Veri sian lah wan use com stil hav to read and study WTF?!?!dun understand why mi mother muz force mi til lik tt loh.aft exam wan relax oso cannot sia...wish tt mi mother was lik much btr lah,but cannot be chng hav to accept mi fate lols!anyw juz hope tt i dun fail mre than 2 subj loh..if not MATI!haha=)reali veri bored sia if not playin fb den blog loh...so sian sia but RC i choing lik siao liao i beat Alex and Tim lols!now nxt to beat is Chuan Kian haha!den keep choinging!!!!WAKAKA!!!hope tt faster lvl up~~~tmr got Archery course liao dunno whether fun sia but mi archer course is diff. frm de sch organise wan loh ours is under NCC wan loh...confrim dam bored durin de lesson if not shootin at de target den is hearin de instructer tch loh...VERI SIAN!now toking to Ryan Lim haha i noe dam alot Ryan's loh...got Lim,Tan(Myself),Go,Thiam,Lee lols can mak record haha!
THE END lols=)

2009-05-15T20:49:00.000-07:00

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2009-05-15T20:25:00.000-07:00

2009-05-15T03:30:00.000-07:00

Ok second dae liaos...its gd tt 2dae no NCC lah...heng we dunnid train til so tiring!but 2dae lik veri stressed had to choose 2 places to go sia...i can choose whether go Meng Ian hse or play LAN agn lah...so first time mi decision was go Ian hse den i chng den i chng den eventually i go LAN...quite complicated lah...so try to understand loh haha =)!so 2dae went to LAN at SAFRA den JoJo and his frens oso go den i sittin beside JoJo den de thing was tt mi com arh dam dam dam FUCKING lag sia...wan play CS oso cannot den play RC oso lag wadeva i play oso lag sia...den i dun care liao i juz let it play RC juz leave it lah HECK CARE!!!anyw RC i beatten TIM!!!haha and soon it will be ALEX so u btr watch out!!!WAKAKA!!!=) 2dae mi and Mitch stay at LAN de longest i tink abt 4hrs++den our NCC seniors oso go thr sia lols!so when Tim,Kyaw Kyaw and his frens leave we stil playin den we play CS den almost every match kenna OWNAGE sad lah...den now we becoming sort of pro coz we no new secret tunnels!!!WAKAKA!!!! ok nthin to post liao but go video abt Mitch bdae and Ryan Thiam illegal U-Turn!

2009-05-14T00:26:00.000-07:00

Srry for not postin for quite awhile coz exam period mah so no time post lah...but past few weeks,day...lots of thing happen lik Mitch's bdae,den 2dae finish exam den go lan...etc lah!also got Ryan Thiam's father illegal u-turn lols!now i finally can blog but dun reali noe wad to type sia...lik all de things happen cannot even rmb but i hav videos haha!Mitch bdae and Thiam illegal u-turn!tok abt 2dae lah...onli can rmb 2dae.so we went to Toa Phoya Safra play Lan den play 3hrs sia...de time lik veri fast loh.we play awhile arh den WHOA!3hrs gone liao lols den Mitch say tmr stil wan come HAHAS,but tmr all CCA resume sia...den hav NCC sian lah dun wan go sia but no choice lah!so at Lan play counter-strike onli lols play for quite awhile stil quite noob muz train til lik Xuan Wee tt pro loh...ok end liao haha!i no post veri short but reali nthing to write!

2009-04-22T01:17:00.000-07:00

Ahh...finally can blog lols!3 daes no blog coz recently got exam comin up haiz!nid study sia dam lazy lols!so lets tok abt Mon when to sch den de chi tcher say she cannot teach us den we go library den i was tellin Alex,Nico,Xuan Wee,Mitch and Tim abt de no pok tt video den we all lik de startin part de 'Eh Neh Neh Neh'tt part lols!dam funny hahas!so at library 1E4 oso thr den got wan halal tcher den i go scold de 1E4 gals behind us i say'u tink u halal veri big arh??i stuff pork into ur mouth arh'den all suddenly start laughing haha reali dam funny!den we mak alot noise den de malay tcher come scold us den i shout'u halal veri big izit??i pour pork intestine into mouth lah'den agn all laugh lols!reali dam funny den tt dae durin recess we see malay we keep sayin eh neh neh neh!lols den nthin funny liaos!now tok abt tues,go to sch den keep sayin de eh neh thing den we had sci test lols din reali study lah but we copied MUAHAHA!so fun den Chuan Kien dam smart sia he hide his eyes den keep lookin at Rajat den copy...den suddenly when goin to end de test our class started laughin for no reason den Chuan Kien go ask Jhoann to let him copy lols!den nthin liaos lah juz tt when finish test Alex wan to lik dodge frm his Band tcher coz got errm some kind of study thingy...now lets tok abt 2dae haha!had home econ de partical test den had to rmb de steps to cook sia WTF?den i rmb most of dem lah...den Nico coz practise 1 time onli so i ask him see wad i do...den i cook de tcher come check say why noodles so short den she say coz soak water too long den i go tell her is coz de noodle is short den she dun believe haiz...den Ryan Thiam and Mitch wan at de bottom of de container got 1 layer of oil sia lols!den they say when cookin tt time they juz anyhow put any amount of oil lols!den we oso got bak home econ test de results...23.5/50 got improved lah...den aft sch when toa phoya central den we caught a video of Ryan Thiam father illegal u-turning lols!den when Thiam knew his father goin u-turn he faster run towards his father thr sia lols...den we go Burger King and McDonalds to eat den funny thing is we go tak sugar sia den de 1st time i say 'eh gan gan na lah!'den mi and Nico go bak agn den we act,coz we saw de aunty refilling den Nico was standin near to de sugar thr den he tak everything frm de tray sia!den faster ZAO ltr get caught haha!den we go show it to Alex,Mitch and Tim den sittin in front of us got tis uncle keep lookin at us sia!so we pour sugar into our mouth as lunch lols den i go pour de sugar into de cup of coke we bought too...den all go home liao den mi and Mitch were lik so obssessed in WORMS 3D lols we play til our station and Mitch say 'haven yet lah Sembawang onli'lols sia!den juz noe tt Nico throw de cup of Ice and Sugar in de bus lols sia!shall end here...maybe nxt post is nxt wk ba...will try haha!

2009-04-17T00:56:00.000-07:00

lols abt 3 dae nvr post liao...so 2dae shall post haha!so tok abt wed got NCC trainin den when they takin name tt time got 1 sec2 guy do smthing wrng than their PC(Plantoon Comando)ask him go run around de netball court 1 time den another sec2 say 1 for all,all for 1 lah than the rest all run...den we all watching dem run sia so funny lols!den suddenly is our turn than our PC ask us run around de netball court 5 times sia lol den we runnin til veri tiring!den do marching b4 playin games den we played soccer den veri funny i lov tis part got tis fat malay guy hav de ball rite i go run aft lah den i use a little strength to push him rite he puay toh!is an accident arh not on purpose lol...coz de field veri wet wad!so not mi fault...but maybe lah hors...den oso had Home Econ test lah...quite easy to mi coz i got study lah dunno wad others tink lol!now tok abt Thurs can't reali rmb wad happen...juz tt Alex and Tim came bak but Nico stil sick haven come bak yet lah....lols den Tues had Sci test veri hard sia...but i noe whr Mr Chong get de Ques i tink is frm a assement book lah if not wrng so thurs reali nthin to tok...reali got shorten memory liao lah keep forgetting things lol.so tok abt 2dae had music den durin music tcher ask us go youtube but we all tokin abt fb lols den go play pet society haha!den lessons lessons lessons den finally finish sch den i keep playin PGR i tink im addicted to it liaos so aft sch went to Alex locker help clear up lah when finish den all go home...got 1 gd news mi Mum passed her Drivin Test finally sia!lols=)nxt post i will show ur de fotos of ur class crumple lols!

2009-04-14T01:30:00.000-07:00

normal dae 2dae juz tt nearly was late lah...heng not late lols den funny thing is tt ytd Mitch and Xuan Wee sick den 2dae is Alex and Xuan Wee...dunno tmr is who sick arh?Nico,Mi,Thiam or Mitch see who unlucky loh...so 2dae had Chi and Sci test all equally hard lah...den Sci i nvr study sia...i tink i may fail i tot onli nid study chap 4 onli den i din noe nid study both Chap 4&5...tmr stil got Home Econ test nid revise sia...dam lazy den stil got NCC tmr dunno wad will they do to us arh??keep marchin for de whole aftnoon lols!hopefully not lah...wish tt tmr none of us get sick loh...sm thing quite wrng Alex for no reason fever 39.1 DEGREES sia WTF?!?!?lols hopefully he and Xuan Wee will feel much btr and come to sch lol!GET BETTER!!!!=)gonna stop here liaos lah 2dae oso nthin to post in sch so boring wan

2009-04-11T17:35:00.000-07:00

So lets get carkcin and tok abt ytd lols!nthing much lah hor...had tution loh normal daily lifestyle lah!so i went to tution at 1.30 to 3 den came bak home to do some HE revision...den do til 5++den i left home go to Causeway point.den decided go to popular first buy some things lah...den went to Mos burger eat,den go NTUC den i was pushing de trolley veri funny lols mi bro was sittin inside and i pushing him,den buy everything finish go counter pay...so i go play wif de trolley keep pushing here and thr lols!i sound lik a mad dog haha=)!den went home...nthing liaos lah...veri short post.
Friday dunno whether ur got go watch Fast&Furious4??lols but if got tell mi de story haha!hope ur had fun tt dae lols!

BE A MAN DO THE RIGHT THING AT THE RIGHT TIME!!!!!!!!!=))!

2009-04-09T00:58:00.000-07:00

Sm one trying to mix the drink
Added with Anything,lemon,tomato,fries,mayonise and vinegar
Wanna try our drink one month will lau sai arh!
The cool drink tt we all made
Jaslyn in her cute pose haha!
Alex eating his food

Cute Nico haha!
Having great fun again!
Drinking his drink
Tim and Chuan Kien havin great fun lols!
Chuan Kien smsing
Trying to tak pic of mi haha!

Alex eating the siew mai

The pics of the dae lols 2dae was alright lah first lesson was chinese and had compo lols de tcher dam wad sia i ask her go toilet 4 times sia the third time right she ask mi w8 ten mins den i can go sia WTF?!?!sia arh she den 10 min over den i tell tcher den she say ok i giv u 1 min go toilet u btr come bak in 1 min arh!den i say ok lah den i choing sia i wonder in tis world why got tis type of tcher loh ppl urgent den ask w8 ten mins sia...den had PE den recess.den was eng so during eng lesson had to do letter writing den can anyhow how write de address and de ppl u writing to so i say address arh Geylang Lorong 16 Hotel 81 rm22 lols den i tell Chuan Kien den mi and Chuan Kien laughing lik siao!den de ppl we go say Tom Cruise,Angelina Jolie,Britney Spears,Goh Chok Tong,Lee Kuan Yew,S R Nathan,Obama,Osama and David Beckham sia lols!den mi,Chuan Kien,Xuan Wee laugh lik mad lik tt den suddenlyMitch said MAS SELEMAT!!!den all laugh lik siao agn lols!realli veri funny!den suddenly Amabel and Wilmin got called to DM thr den when they come bak rite Amabel was lik acting how DM scolded Xin Hui sia!dam funny lols den i say eh Amabel go join Mediacorp lah!true lah hor quite funny hahas,den was math lesson den she act in front of Mr Tan(math tcher) den tis time she tak Xin Hui diary and read out lols i was reading half part den she snatch frm mi...den lesson goin end tt time rite i saw a musking tape den i go and tak it den i saw Kyaw Kyaw leg's quite hairy arh i go paste de musking tape and tear den de hair got stick haha!den he say try agn den i go tak den i tell Casimir come see den tear agn den de last one funniest wan i tak a bigger piece of musking tape i go and put at Kyaw Kyaw back leg coz got alot hair den i paste and plug den got alot of hair sia!den mi and Casimir laugh lik siao den Valerie ask why we laughing de i tell her lah...den she oso laugh lols.so stayed bak for some NCC thing den go botak jones eat den had alot of fun sia...^^^pics are up thr u will noe how fun haha!now de video of Tim's father ILLEGAL U-TURNING haha!!!

2009-04-08T05:37:00.000-07:00

so lets tok abt 2dae...went to sch as per normal...reach thr quite early lols!den saw xuan wee.so went to classroom den casimir 2dae nvr come so i tell JoJo sit at casimir's seat den i combine all de 4 tables together lah...den first period is end lesson den i forgotten tt 2dae got Eng Compre Test sia...den i took de test which was lik 1hour den i finished it in 20-30mins den de time left i go sleep sia!so shoick haha!den nxt lesson sci den nthin lah tt one so aft sch got NCC den Nico,Alex and Chuan Kien hav to go.so we together go 7-11 eat lunch den in 7-11 Chuan Kien receive a call frm Jaslyn den he was saying'who are u?call mi for wad' den he ask 'Where u' den i go say at geylang lols den Chuan Kien was standing beside de shelf of things(ur shouldn't noe wan!!!) den Alex go say eh go buy de cheap wan lols!den Nico and Mitch go buy Gulp den Nico first wanted to buy Big Gulp den suddenly change his mind wan buy Super Big Gulp den i tell him go and use de Big Gulp de drink pour into the Super Big wan den if not enough go put sm mre...den i go put de use cup put bak at de place whr ppl go and tak and wan to buy wan lols!den Alex saw his watch 2.22 liao den they nid choing bak sch for Math Peer Coaching den we caught up wif dem lah...den enter sch saw Shafiq den ask mi help him put his bag outside de NCC room den instead i bring it to de locker lols den Mitch and Tim go to toilet and change into NCC uni den i say go wear shoes outside classroom lah...den i keep walking around de classroom disturbing Nico, Alex and Chuan Kien lols.den Alex saw Tim and Mitch wearin de uni den they say veri cute lol den i saw wan sec2 guy frm NCC den ask mi whether got tissue den i say got in bag.den i go tak den cming bak i saw Shafiq den he ask mi whr his bag den i ask him to folo mi go our class go tak den i saw tt sec 2 guy den he ask mi whr de tissue den i say go toilet tak lah den he say toilet door lock den suddenly ask mi folo him go knock down de door lols!den i folo wah he kik de door dam hard sia but de door stil nvr open...den went to NCC keep doin de same drills do til now mi leg so pain!tmr stil got PE sia...den can retake NAPFA haiz!i dun tink hav chance to pass NAPFA liaos lol!anyway i will try mi best hahas!=)

2009-04-07T00:41:00.000-07:00

ok so maybe tok abt ytd and 2dae nthin much lah...juz tt 2dae in sch when we wanted to leave to J8 wif Alex we suddenly cannot find him...den i noe why he purposely lose us he wanted to pang seh ANNOYMOUS haha!so mi,Mitch,Nico,Jaslyn and Andy go 7-11 thr den i go buy peanut pancake(mi fav. haha!=])den Nico buy cheese fries and Mitch bought de same as mi lols.den Jaslyn so buy pop corn chicken.den i juz now call Avril say if saw Alex call mi den i got miss call frm her so call her bak no ans den i tell Jaslyn say eh help mi call Sophie den call liao ask her whether Alex wif dem...den i ask em wan go J8 bo?den all say ok lah so cross de road mi,Andy and Nico J-Walk...den funny thing is tt Nico walk tt time rite de car goin to turn den he stil slowly walk lik gangster sm mre sia!dam funny lols den mi and Andy keep laughing!!!den say Amabel and Si Han 2gether...den i was drinking 7-up den Amabel ask mi let her drink den i tell her open ur mouth i help u pour lah...den she kik mi sia...WTF?!?!mi daughter did tt to mi lols!nvm lah hor!so let her drink den walk to J8 find Alex den saw Alex and Tim happily eatin Tako Balls.den got a call frm Mitch sayin tt he at Mini Toons so i rushed up i pang seh Tim,Alex and Andy den i dunno wad happen lah...so when to find Nico,Mitch and Jaslyn loh,so we stay at Comics Collection awhile den nthing to do den go home,den Mitch say wan go Old Chang Kee den folo den he oso went to Pet Shop see hamster...dam cute sia lols.Jaslyn come sms mi say wan go AMK hub slack den i say ok loh meet MRT station den actually go trick her lols!so at MRT took her $4 den at aMk stil dun wan return so i hav to run out and return and run bak dam sian...while runnin out de train door goin close liaos so i quickly rush heng arh!on the way home Mitch suddenly say smthin abt names den he suddenly say wad Energizer Teo den we started laughing lols...den nthing much liao,juz tt when gonna reach home Mitch say wan work at Per Shop...den i ask why den he say coz he wan tak care of de pets dun wan work at those Mc Donald hav to ask customer all tis den i ask agn dun to lik attend to customer at Pet shop meh den he say work as those takin care of pets wan lols funny guy haha!=)
xX[CunningMi]Xx

2009-04-03T18:11:00.000-07:00

ok so tok abt ytd...got some kind of NCC affirmation thingy...actually suppose to end at abt 11.30 but end nearly 12 liao den was suppose to rush to YCK swimmin complex to swim wif Alex,Casmir,JoJo and den Jaslyn...i din noe she was thr sia...den keep callin her honster hahas!so swimmin tt time i keep pulling Jaslyn leg coz she wun lend de ball sia den de funny thing is tt she dun noe how to swim hahas!!!swim finish liao den all go buy drink and food lah den walk to de stadium...so i REPONSIBILITY house wad den lik veri few of mi hse de ppl tak part in de events sia den all de others lik got so many loh,they do de march pass den strt liao so overall we nvr reali win lah become mi fav hse win sia,RESPECT!!!durin de event Alex,Tim,Mitch,Chuan Kien lik keep goin to their hse and then comin to ours lols!=]when whole thing finish DM let us go liao den we walk to MRT station rite hav to go another way but we use de illegal way(wrong way)den muz lik jump over den fence to de bus interchange...den lik gang fight lik tt sia so many ppl jump over tt thing den dunno Mon when go bak sch wad will DM say lols.den Chuan Kien go say all go gang fight no weapon use bag throw at dem haha!so when mi and Mitch goin to enter de MRT he suddenly say wan tak taxi den i say anythin lol...on the way de taxi driver cheat money sia can dun u-turn he go u-turn dog sia...durin de whole journey mi and Mitch tok thru SMS,quite funny coz dun wan let de driver noe wad we tokin abt lols!end here!

2009-04-02T02:01:00.000-07:00

2dae was normal nthin much lah...juz tt aft sch went to eat PEANUT PANCAKE!!!it rox sia!even Tim eat til so dam shoick!so aft sch went to 7-11 to lik accompany jaslyn lah den i go buy de pancake den Thiam,Nico and Mitch come ask mi help dem buy cheese fires and sweet corn.so buy den go eat den ltr finish go bak agn den i go buy corn den Tim go buy de pancake hahas!so walk home den at MRT de exit thr suddenly Mitch say a guy frm de integrity de team den ask him dunno wad den Mitch say'eh Tim nid stay bak sia' den de other guy say'dun stay will get detention by tcher' den Tim tink til veri stressed lik tt den i was lik tellin him nvm lah dun go oso nvm coz u got reason den de other guy keep sayin will get detention...so i say ok let Tim tink for 3mins den see wad his ans den in de end he say wan go home loh...so Mitch go bak to sch.so on de train Tim was playin his PSP den he lik keep throwin de Edge out of de ring to PIN his de other oppenent to win mah den Tim took lik 2 MRT stations to PIN him lols...haiz tmr got sch den stil nid go for NCC affirmation or smthin den nid go Yio Chu Kang Stadium to see mi team(RESPONSIBILITY)run den cheer for em!hope RESPONSIBILTY WIN!THEY ROX!hahas!=)))

2009-04-01T02:07:00.000-07:00

ok u guys patience hahas!so tok abt 2dae lol ok nthin interestin lik normal daes...but quite special!coz tok to old fren lah den quite shock got stead liao lehs!gd for him lah!nvm normal juz tt got group work wif gals lah WTF?!?!den i keep bargainin wif de tcher say dun wan in de end no choice den i presenter sm mre sia!tmr stil nid present some s2pid 'ESTACY AD'....so ytd mak sure sm one dun see arh!ytd when to botak jones to hav lunch den we dun one tis guy come den he manage catch up sia...so we got tis trick say cmon lets play block cathin den we lik trick him den we run away den i tink he lik saw us den act act nvr see.den 2dae ask him den he say wad coz saw his frens den dun wan play juz folo him go home or smthin lik tt...BULLSHIT lah!anyway all those ppl who wan mi link pls w8 patience pls hahas!!!=]

s2pid msn virus!

2009-03-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

recently when i sign in to mi msn got tis s2pid virus or smthin den got tis gal keep sendin porn sites lah...(i nvr went hor)so i keep closin den when she send finish tt time rite she everytime sign out wan...stil dunno izit virus or wad sia?!?!nvm tok abt 2dae loh...mi mum hav to go for parent meetin so i can use com lik 1 whole dae lah so shoick man w8 so long for tis day!den strted usin at 7++and play PSP sm mre lah...ltr stil nid go for tution dam lah dun wan to go leh...but no choice lah hav to improve coz PSLE not tt gd sia!haiz life hav to go on and reali in life u will face alot of set baks,so i tink i hav to work reali hard to get a slighlt btr result loh!@BYE!

Special Thanks~!

2009-03-27T05:37:00.001-07:00

Ok let mi thanks mi frens Tim and mi ah gong(alex)!reali thankful to em for helping wif mi blog lorhs,i lik w8 veri long liao and finally done MUAHAHA~~~!so nvm lah tell ur abt mi outin wif 6H'08 lah...so on 22Mar'09 went out to Cathay Cineleisure.so i leave home quite late lik 10.05 lik tt den i lik askin mi father faster lah coz he fetchin mi den on mi way alot ppl keep callin mi ask whr i sia...but nvm not latest hahas=)!so reach AMK hub den tak MRT til Somerset den frm thr walk to Cathay lahs...so rch liao lik no one thr sia so empty lols.so tak escalator i tell u u tak arhs lik u walkin on de stairway to heaven sia so long den de cinema on lvl 6...so bought tics at 12.05 wans den de gals keep takin neo-print sia tak til lik movie goin strt sil tak!!HAIZ!!!(dunno wad to comment)so we watch Race To Witch Mountain is a nice show so all pls watch den Yu Jie got tis idea coz commerical got show tt de ailen boi go trash de car tt part say wan scare gals in front us lah...den scare dam tt time they go scold us sia dam FUNNY!actually suppose lik 20+ppl go wan loh den become 15 haiz why nvr appear sia!wasted if not can buy down whole cinema liaos!so aft movie went to AMK hub agn to eat at NeBo restaurant as im member marhs den de gals arh go gei kiang go buy spicy fries den dam spicy den gerldine lik tt say"eh,ur bois wan anot?"so i walk thr and tak...den try wah lau eh so spicy sia den i say ai ya nvm larhs ur gals tak bak...so we all bois buy tis drink "love potion"quite nice btr den de last time i try tt grape flavour wan,den eat liao go arcade play den play basketball&racing coz i owe Ian and Ryan lim lik $10 game sia!WTF?!?!nvm play wif em funny thing mi machine got prob sia wan drift cannot drift WTF?den lose liao loh...so all de match i lose sia so pathetatic...so play finish disperse haha...JKJK!went to minitoons buy bdae gift for gerldine&lynette den de dam aunty ask wan wrappin paper den 1 cost $2 sia dam plain sm mre!FUCK her lah @sshole!ok den giv de present den reali desperse liao all ge zou ge lu!so finish story liao so ALL SLEEP HAHAS!

2009-02-13T04:08:00.000-08:00

ok so maybe i start from de scratch lah hor...if lik ur noe mi old blog which is preditionsof-future...den maybe u noe mi haha i delete tt blog liao lah so dun bother searchin haha lol=)so maybe tok abt 2dae...dam funny lah...went to de IT lab or smthin lah...den was doin some music video den i dunno how do so ask Alex help lah...den suddenly Tim drop his thumbdrive to de socket thr sia...dunno why he so clumsy oso!haha(no offence hor Tim)den we trying to tak out using ruler and tap but cannot stil...so i go borrow 1 mre frm amabel den try try try stil cannot den bo pian lah de thunbdrive stuck thr loh cannot come out sad!=(!
den when go bak class amabel say wad her ruler alot of scratch den i say i go and help her buy new 1 loh....den Andy say got alot dust loh...so 2dae i got NCC siao wan sia they ask us to do push-ups under de sun on de parade square den our hand burning sia...lik kenna grilled on de barbeque pit lol